Can I Be Honest?

It’s been a hard year. I entered into 2018 with HUGE expectations and was met with a very different reality. As many of you may know, we were licensed as foster parents early in the year and welcomed two little girls into our hearts, home, and family. To say that it disrupted our life would be an understatement. We’ve seen things we can’t unsee and experienced things we can’t communicate. In the midst of the almost 8 months that they were in our home, we also had two miscarriages. As so many people know (lots of pregnancies end in miscarriage) the pain and grief is very real. As we dealt with those situations and the array of difficulties that come with them, our job of raising ministry partners (financial and prayer supporters) has not received much attention. So as you can expect, our ministry finances are lacking pretty significantly. 

So if I’m honest…I don’t really want to be here. 

I woke up at 2:00am. It’s 4:35am. I’m in Starbucks at Dulles Int. Airport eating an overpriced muffin and despite what my life choices point toward, I don’t really like flying.  So why am I getting ready to board a plane to do groundwork training in the Dominican Republic?

I’ve learned something this year that seems so simple and obvious. 

Our world needs Jesus. 

I mean, the real Jesus. As King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Not social justice. Not democracy. Not world peace. Just JESUS. Until Jesus is seated on the throne there will ALWAYS be miscarriages, pain, children in foster care, terrible health insurance, lack of resources, disease, and death. 

But there is GOOD NEWS! Jesus IS the answer and this Good News comes with a promise. 

And the Good News about the Kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, so that all nations will hear it, and then the end will come.

Matthew 24:14

That means Jesus IS COMING and there will be NO MORE miscarriages, pain, children in foster care, terrible health insurance, lack of resources, disease, and death. 

So if I’m COMPLETELY honest…I DO want to be here.

I want with all of my being to see the GOOD NEWS go to all the nations so that we get JESUS as KING. I also want to be here because I get to know Jesus NOW and I get to know Him more and more as I obey his call and invitation to just follow him. 

I want to live today like Jesus is coming back tomorrow. I haven’t done a great job of that this year. But I find hope that Jesus still desires to use people like me (and like you) when we choose to simply follow. I want to be here. And I’m grateful to get to do it with people like you!